Friday, 6 December 2013

Hanging on to hope

I wrote this post minutes before I lost my little glimpse of a rainbow, I saved it as a draft. I was going to delete in and write a completely new one, but I've decided to publish because it was already written.

This is my little bean of hope, 8 weeks and 3 days.

I've been bleeding for 8 days and I'm scared, "scared" is an understatement. 
I'm absolutely terrified.

We went to our 1st scan on Monday and everything looks nice and healthy, little beans heart was healthy and strong.

I was so relieved...

But a day later I started to bleed a lot, I was sure I was loosing my rainbow baby.

I've had a hormone test and the levels are low, its not looking good.

I am expecting the worse, I really didn't think this could happen to me again.

 I truly didn't think it could.

I'm hanging on to my last drop of hope.

I'm waiting for results, and a scan, its a waiting game.

I've played this game before, and I really don't want to play it again.

Esperanza (meaning hope in spanish) 5.12.2013